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November Cosmic Influence Report

November Cosmic Influence Report

November's moon cycle is called the Frosty Moon; it carries with it the emotional and transformational energy of Scorpio Season, and the boundary pushing, explorative energy of Sagittarius Season. This moon cycle holds a Dark Week, and this will be something you need to prepare for. Read below for deeper insight into what's going on up in the sky:

Frosty Moon Energy

The most exciting thing this month - after nearly a year of deeply intense transformation - is Jupiter’s move into Sagittarius during the Dark Week. This happens during the first week of November.

The Dark Week is seven nights where the moon does not reach above 10% illumination. But we do not need to fear the dark. You know how, when in the dark, you’re scared or antsy for a brief moment, and then your eyes adjust? And in that adjustment, you feel a sense of power - for what you can see in the dark looks quite different in the absence of light, and you can move with a stealth and eloquence that isn’t possible in daylight? There is life-changing potential all week.

Since we are sitting in Venus Retrograde for half this month, we’ve been feeling a lot of tension in our relationships, in love, in our financial habits and, most importantly, tension in our relationship with ourself.

Retrogrades do not need to be this big, scary, ominous thing. Retrogrades shift the focus inward, and when the Planet of Relationships retrogrades - or shifts inward - it forces us to get real with ourselves. Venus Retrograde is a nice gift after a year of Emotional Transformation. This year of Emotional Transformation is thanks to Jupiter! Jupiter stays in each sign for about a year. We’re in Scorpio Season now, and this season is all about birth, death, rebirth and transformation - so you’re probably really feeeeeeling things right now. This is a water season after all, so it’s emotional and deep, and it forces us to feel.

Jupiter, the Planet of Growth, Expansion and Luck, was in the sign of Scorpio for the last year. When all this change first started. So for the past year, we’ve been growing and expanding (Jupiter) - experiencing birth, death, rebirth and transformation (Jupiter in Scorpio) in BIG ways. This equals Emotional Transformation. Finally, this energy is coming to a close, and I’m willing to bet you’ve been through a hell of a journey this year.

Jupiter moves into Sagittarius during the Dark Week. Sagittarius is the sign of PUSHING BOUNDARIES, exploration, learning new things - having a good sense of humour, and being brave. If this energy is in the planet of growth and expansion (and luck!) we find ourselves at an amazing threshold:

Where do you want to go?


If you’ve got choices in your lap this month, or if you’re looking for that final certainty about all the choices + changes you’ve facilitated over this year, consider reading this post

YOUR PERMISSION.


It is time to go in the direction of newness; go in the direction you’ve never been before; trust yourself and your ability to grow, try, fail, try again, be resourceful and experience things you’ve never experienced before. This IS how you grow. This IS how you evolve. And this IS how you collectively push us all forward.

Whatever you choose for yourself right now, I want you to know this is directly connected to me. This is directly connected to your partner. Your girlfriends. Your parents. Your neighbours. The people who run the coffee shop across the street. The crew at your favourite restaurant. We’re all collectively growing, ebbing and flowing together, and if we all move toward growth and newness, we can, truly, push each other all forward together - no woman or man left behind.

Because the world is changing anyway, and it’s going to continue to change RAPIDLY over 2019 (thanks Jupiter in Sagittarius!) and when we remind ourselves of how altruistic this experience is; how our choices affect everyone around us because we’re all in this together, we can make our decisions out of a place of Love rather than Fear.

If you find yourself hanging on to your old life and your old experiences, ask yourself if this is coming from a place of fear. Are you afraid of what you don’t know or what you have not experienced? If we make decisions from a place of fear rather than love, we can trust that these will be the incorrect decisions to move us forward. Decisions made out of Fear, will only keep up us where we are. Stagnant. The Same. Not growing. We trick ourselves because we convince our minds by staying the same, we stay “safe” - but are we safe? The world has been designed around Fear. Fear is used to control us. It is a venomous weapon that seeps into us, hooks is claws into our minds, and keeps us tame and limited.

And no. We are not safe. So do we want to hang on to a position that lacks safety? We are learning how unsafe we are. Collectively. And we will keep learning this. We will keep overturning and discovering new things that prove our lack of safety. And now we need to decide how to proceed forward with that information.

We can not unlearn what we have learned. And we have been presented only with the illusion of safety.

Does your RRSP make you feel safe? Does your mortgage make you feel safe? What if the market crashes, and interest rates soar, and your house becomes unaffordable despite you having done everything right? Or your investments are cut in half? Does your job make you feel safe? And what if the company goes under due to unforeseen circumstances? Or a technological advancement we didn’t see coming? Or your union safety net crumbles because of a change in government? Or a natural disaster wipes out your entire home and city?

What now?

The illusion that you’re supposed to grow up, go to school, get a job, find a partner, reproduce, sock your money away, buy a house, retire… and… what… live happily ever after? If it feels like a boring slog, that’s because it is. The world isn’t designed for this anymore. The world has changed. This “safe and good information guide to life” was designed because someone came up with a system that seemingly made sense and could protect us.

But others are marginalized. Forgotten. Left behind. Tortured.

So that system DOESN’T work.

We then tried to regain control by “planning for the unexpected". Buying life insurance, critical illness insurance, disability insurance - SAVING MORE - we were like SURE THROW IT AT ME I’LL PREPARE FOR IT.

But let me tell you something: we’re so stressed and miserable trying to live by this information guide, that our bodies give out. We get sick. We get cancer (hi, been there), and then… then, we don’t give a fuck about what’s in our bank account or what neighbourhood our house is in. We care about seeing the people we love and loving them as hard as we fucking can while we can. I know this seems like an extreme example, except it’s not. It’s real life. It’s something you can’t actually plan for no matter how hard you try.

We aren’t all supposed to do things the same as one another. There is no one set system that works for everybody. Just look at us. Look at those who were and are forgotten, or who are not benefiting from our “sacred system of doing things” simply because they’re different.

We aren’t supposed to be these tame, orderly creatures, following a world order made by a select few individuals. Our world is too big now. If we do this, it will only stop us from growing or evolving, and by just doing what is safe - what is the same - the same as what our neighbour is doing, or the perfect woman across the street or on instagram is doing… we are doomed to fail our mission.


In your heart, you know exactly what you want to do. And if you’re like, “Wow, Vanessa sounds intense. I’m just deciding to leave my husband - how does that affect the whole world?” I want to remind you: your choices to affect me. By being bold and brave and different you send out a ripple effect that reverberates through the entire planet. You are literally THAT important. Your choices, your experience and how you navigate your life here is literally THAT important.


You KNOW the direction you want to go. The fear you’re feeling about it? That’s your old self. That’s the controlling - and crumbling - Patriarchy trying to keep us in a place where we can be controlled. But the world is sick. We are collectively off-path because we’ve been steered off path. But now, we can’t recede back to our old selves. We can’t unlearn what we learned through this important year, and the planets are even shifting around to help us make it so. It’s time to take control back for your life - because the world, literally, depends on it.

And you are so so ready. Look how strong you are after all this! Your story is actually SO inspiring to someone out there. To everyone out there. Because we are all in this together.

We are each going through our own “thing” right now, but the point is, even though these “things” are different for each of us (cause we’re on our own journeys) - WE’RE ALL going through SOMETHING. Because we are all connected.

So what are the actionable things you can actually do? Don’t let this Dark Week feel ominous; revel in your darkness and sink into who you’re supposed to be. The thoughts, feelings, and actions you participate in during the first week of November are utterly important. They have the potential to have extremely long lasting effects. Sow your seeds extra deep. Think big. Feel big. Be grand. Remove limits. Acknowledge your vulnerability, weakness, darkness, and operate in a place of incredible awareness.

Pay attention.

Listen. Feel. Move. Trust.

You know what you want already. You know! It is time to decide, and design your life that way. The details? Don’t trip up on them just yet. You just need to capitalize on the last of this Venus Retrograde energy - a true gift after this year because it allows us to look inward and spend time looking inward (40 days).

You know what shit doesn’t matter. Now, you can stop letting it matter.

Go.

Transform.

NOVEMBER IS A FORMIDABLE MONTH - in October, our guides and spiritual team were all around us, sending us signs, aligning things for us just so - now after all that hard work, our new reality is almost hard to ignore. You’re through whatever you were pushed into with all the eclipses from this summer, whether that was physical, emotional or mental, and now you’ve got to figure out how to move; how to be. And you will. You need to trust that you will, because you are not who you were in January. You have been reborn, recharged and realigned. It’s time to own it. You have nothing to be ashamed of, and nothing to hide. You are absolutely perfect and in alignment with what you came here to experience. You’ve just got to let yourself have it and love it now.


MERCURY RETROGRADE

Now, after that mighty chunk of text, we can look a little differently at the upcoming Mercury retrograde, can’t we? Yes, I hear you: the internet cries when Mercury goes retrograde. Emails are lost, we don’t understand each other, and I swear laptops explode. Mercury will retrograde this month - a day after Venus goes direct - so we aren’t quite through with our transformation process. But dang are we close.

Instead of panicking over technology, train your awareness to shift inward. “OK, the Planet of Communication is retrograding, asking me to shift inward… how do I want to communicate with myself? How do I want to learn? How do I process information?”

Sloooooow down during this Mercury Retrograde. Allow yourself to move and be slow when it feels right, and appreciate that retrogrades will allow us to revisit some miscommunications that have ALREADY happened. Is there someone you had or have an existing miscommunication with? This retrograde is happening in the sign of Sagittarius: having a good sense of humour will come into play here. Can you reconnect or re-communicate through humour? Can you soften a misunderstanding with lightness? Sagittarius’s unhealthy potential is that is can push and push and push for the sake of truth, but it can push too hard and hurt others. Do you really need to make your point? Why? Is it for your ego? Is it for your pride? Passion?

Sagittarius is a fire sign; it can burn or it can warm, but it will be up to you to decide. You are not at the mercy of other people’s emotions or communication-style during Mercury Retrograde. You are always in control of your reality, and by having your awareness dialled right up, you can navigate this final retrograde with grace.

Once Mercury is direct, we will not have retrogrades until 2019. BOY BYE!



WORKING THROUGH THE EMOTIONS OF SCORPIO SEASON

The feelings will be cranked right up for most of the month but this is truly because we are so raw right now. This year has not been an ordinary one; Blue Moons, eclipses, retrogrades - we had all of it.

BUT GIRL. IT IS WORTH IT. Do not be afraid of emotions. You can not un-know what you now know. You are wiser and stronger. It’s totally OK for these things to catch up with you and bubble over sometimes this month. It is absolutely OK to be emotional, happy or sad. There is nothing wrong with emotions. They are your soul crying out and gasping, bypassing our humanness and letting themselves out. Free.

Laughing is the same as crying. It’s a Soul Freedom. Your soul is designed to be free. The rigid structure of our human world - our old world - is an intangible thing that we need to continue working toward dissolving. And we are. Look at how we are reacting to equality, racism and government structures. Keep moving toward your Soul Freedom. It is not easy, but you are here as part of a collective, working toward the same mission.

Change. Freedom. Love.

It’s a pleasure to be here with you.
 

BURSTING INTO SAGITTARIUS SEASON

Get ready. Sag Season will bring you to a place you’ve never been before. And that is hella exciting. It’s scary, sure, but you do not need to Fear it. Lean into the excitement, the newness, and your freedom to try new things. I think it will be important not to resist - don’t resist your urges and desires. Let them guide you. This is a deeply passionate season, and the Frosty Moon will allow us to slow down parts of our lives almost to a standstill, allowing us to analyze them at a soul level and assess what does and doesn’t fit anymore.

If it doesn’t fit, acknowledge you’ve outgrown it. This is not sad. It’s incredibly empowering. Thank the thing for everything you’ve grown through together. Thank it for its lessons. And then go. Transform. PUSH. EXPLORE. Discover the new things that make your heart sing; discover the new things you don’t know you like simply because you’ve never tried them.

Try.

Go. Grow. Get.

Failure is not even a potential, you know? Because you do not need to “achieve”. You only need to experience. As soon as we remove the filter of “passing or failing” or “winning or losing” and remember that we are merely experiencing, that stronghold that Fear has on us dissolves, and we are able to explore in a holistic, transformative way.

Because you’re transforming anyway.



Frosty Moon Cycle Reminders
 

• SOW YOUR SEEDS EXTRA DEEP THIS MONTH

• JUPITER, PLANET OF GROWTH AND EXPANSION SHIFTS INTO SAGITTARIUS, THE SIGN OF EXPLORATION AND PUSHING BOUNDARIES

• DO YOUR BEST TO BE AWARE WHEN YOU’RE MAKING DECISIONS OUT OF FEAR INSTEAD OF LOVE

• LET THE END OF VENUS RETROGRADE GIVE YOU ITS GIFTS; REFLECT ON YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOURSELF

• VENUS RETROGRADE COULD GIVE YOU A ROMANTIC ITCH YOU WANT TO SCRATCH

• MERCURY IS GOING RETROGRADE THIS MONTH; DO NOT FEAR IT. BE AWARE OF IT. WELCOME ITS GIFTS OF AWARENESS AND HOW YOU MAY SHIFT INWARD TO REFLECT ON HOW YOU LEARN AND COMMUNICATE

• LET YOURSELF TRANSFORM

• YOUR THOUGHTS, FEELINGS AND ACTIONS THIS MONTH WILL AFFECT YOU FOR YEARS.

• TRUST. RELEASE YOUR GRIP.

• DO NOT BE AFRAID OF WHAT YOU FEEL

• WHERE DO YOU WANT TO GO/GROW?



Inner World Outer World Tarot Spread

Inner World Outer World Tarot Spread

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